[playlist]+[tarot card] : the fool + "goodbye hello goodbye"
this playlist popped into my head the other day, and it seemed worth sharing.
before my current life as internet sleuth and email lackey, i spent many many years as a public librarian in a small town. i both loved and was frustrated by the work, but i put a lot of my heart and soul into it. as i entered my ninth year there, i realized that i'd never move up the hierarchy of that small building, and i'd never make enough to live on my own. it was a sad thought, and it started to affect a lot in my life for the worse.
so i set my sights on the next biggest town nearby and looked at the interesting places to work. i interviewed a whopping three times with the people who would eventually become my current employer, only to be shut out, and i kept plodding away at my job. a couple of months later, they offered me a different position, and though i didn't really want it, i took the opportunity to be anywhere else, even if it only was a small step up.
four years ago on valentine's day, i went to my last day of work at my little public library. i brought this playlist as my formal goodbye to my officemates, my coworkers, and all the people i'd made a bond with over the years. it was a goddamn emotional day - they'd made a cake for me, and they all showed up wearing bow ties (i used to wear a bow tie on a daily basis back then). i spent my last day chatting with patrons and finishing up an instruction manual for all the AV equipment in our auditorium before packing up my desk toys and walking out those doors.
and in a lot of ways, my life improved immensely after that day ended- i was able to live a normal adult life and be surrounded by art, music, and culture. in other ways, i was disheartened by some of the choices i made. but it was a step upward.
now, as i get on in my time in this new town, i start to think about where i want to be next. i'm nowhere near ready to move where i want to move, try the things i want to try, or create the things i want to create, but at least i'm finally taking steps in that direction. taking the first step in another segment of your life is tough but necessary - and that's part of what this playlist was about.
anyway, here's the playlist for you, zipped up with an XML file. i hope you enjoy.
trust - jim guthrie i'm not part of me - cloud nothings catherine 1956 - PAWS IMAX raceway - windmill love (won't save you) - kaia fischer sync / glitch - disasterpeace act too... the love of my life - the roots try again - big star ellen save our energy - windmill the ballad of el goodo - big star been through - cloud nothings gazebo - owen too soon to know - kaia fischer brand new colony - the postal service atlantic - rainer maria a lack of color - death cab for cutie